commitment and doubt

"The relationship between commitment and doubt is by no means an antagonistic one. Commitment is healthiest when it is not without doubt, but in spite of doubt."
~ Rollo May, 1975, The Courage to Create, p. 21
I tend to be timid in new situations, yet I push myself into the new situations. I would say that this is my commitment in spite of doubt. Tuesday night I went to an event here in Columbus, called Wonderblender,  which was set up as a mixer for techies and artists to meet and create collectively. There wern't many details going into the event. I really had no clue as to what the expectations were. My husband drove me there, and I told him "I feel like a kid on the first day of school going to a brand new school" FEAR! What if I am not creative enough? What if I am the only one there with out an idea, What if I can't get a word in edgewise? Yet I was committed to this event, knowing in my heart the worst that would happen was a boring evening (realizing this was unlikely). It turned out to be an incredible networking opportunity with great ideas abounding.
At check in I was given a button that said "artist", and techies were given buttons which said "techie". It was set up like speed dating. Artists sat at tables and techies rotated. Every 4 minutes a bell rang and the techies would move. Amazing how much information two people can share in such a short time. Business cards and ideas were flying, doors to new opportunities were opening. I met all sorts of people, and I also learned that I am exceptionally innovative and creative.